I Would Choose Him Again.

We celebrated our anniversary recently. Almost two decades of marriage.

Here we are, early 20's, broke and pregnant. Just babies. Two damaged people who decided we could fix each other and maybe in the process fix ourselves. And in many ways, that's what's happened.

We grew up together. We didn't spend our childhoods together, but the real growing up? The kind that happens after you leave home, and you start figuring out who you are and what you want and what you believe in, outside of your family or your hometown? That's the kind of growing up we did together.

We left the far right ideology behind together. We left Christianity behind together. We went no contact with our families together. We went to therapy together. We made hard decisions together. We made sacrifices together. And we built a life and a family together.

It is not a perfect marriage and we are not perfect people. I'm bitchy. He can be kind of a dick. That's what happens when a Leo (me) and a Gemini (him) get together.

We joke that this relationship wouldn't work if my ego weren't so massive and his fascination with my entire being weren't so intense. He studies me like one would a wild animal that is both deadly and super cute. I never bore him and he loves that. And he is obsessed with me, which I kind of need in a romantic relationship.

I count myself very lucky. My life has turned out better than I could have imagined, and that is largely due to his unwavering support and commitment to our life, our family, and our future. He never questioned by desire to be a content creator, or influencer, or writer. Not once. He may not have always understood it, but he didn't need to understand it to accept it and support me. He makes space for me to burn just as brightly as I please.

For nearly two decades we have been a team. I would do it all over again if given the choice. I would choose him again. And I am very, very fortunate and very grateful for that.

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